Two Months Later

I know it's been a long while since I've updated. September and part of October was spent getting to know the Prince and obsessing over him. I developed a raging crush on him that didn't compare to anything else. I started thinking he might even be The One.

I was also keeping busy with various road trips on the weekends for family events and had a couple of friends visit from out of town. Life was busy, eventful, and interesting.

Then my dad died. It's been hard, and I still don't feel quite the same. It's been almost a month since he passed away. I try not to think about it too much because it'll make me cry. 

My friends have provided me with adequate support, nurture, and distraction. I know I just need to work through it until it starts hurting less and less.

Work has been quite the distraction. Our company has financial troubles, and the fate of my job/career is up in the air. I'm going to stick it out since I don't really know what else to do. I would move elsewhere if I could since I only moved here for the job. But I don't know if I would stay in my current career path or if I would do something else. I don't know if I'm ready for a career change yet. And who knows, maybe everything will work out, and the company will be fine.

There's been some drama at home with one of my sisters. I don't even know what to do about it, and I just don't care anymore. My brother and sister-in-law are having marital problems. Which I find extremely ironic, considering my sister-in-law spent some time during bereavement week convincing me that marriage is awesome. Not in those words, but that was the sentiment.

I'm not really looking forward to the holidays either. Regardless of how I feel or how they may feel about me, I will still join my family to celebrate them.

Comments

[AmandaQ]

I'm so sorry to hear about your father.  I lost mine in 1999 and it was devastating.  Even now, I still miss him.  I'll see things on tv and think "Oh!  I need to tell Dad about this!" and then remember that I can't.  It will get easier, and you won't always be sad when you think about him.  You'll remember him and all the good times and smile.

[j3ssamin3]

Thank you.