It's been that long? Really?

Man, I have fallen off the radar of life. There are many points to discuss, but since it's late and I should be in bed, this may only be a bullet point recap for now.

• Seoul was a lot of fun. Joe may have his tour extended there, in which case I would like to go back.

• Survived another round of layoffs. This one scared me because NO ONE knew it was coming. My nemesis at work was finally let go, which was about f'ing time. I unfortunately inherited her job, which is, of course, in addition to my job. And let's dash any hope for a pay increase as there are no raises for next year. This is a lot of the reason why I don't have much time for internet pondering. I do like my redefined responsibilities though, which has helped revived my passion for the job.

• Chopped my hair so I could be Coraline for Halloween. Guess what? Only ONE person knew what my costume was. Sometimes I just wonder if I'm just really out there because this isn't the first time no one knew what my costume was. One Halloween I was a Gryffindor and people assumed I was either just a school girl or not in costume. Seriously? I even carried a stuffed cat and was wearing the scarf! Another year I was Velma from Scooby Doo. I carried around a freakin' box of Scooby Snacks. Once again, people didn't even realize I was wearing a costume or didn't know who I was. 

• Having some issues with the longest friendship I've ever had. I've known her since I was eleven. And we've had a couple major bumps in the road, but slowly over time, the road has been eroding and is in serious need of repair.

Bump #1: She dated my ex-fiance after we broke up. I actually didn't have a problem with it. She did though, and she ended the friendship because "she couldn't live with the ghost of me." Despite that, when she came to me to rekindle our friendship, I was able to move past it and continue with our friendship. 

Bump #2: She asked me to be her maid of honor, which I said yes to. Then her wedding plans changed, and it became a destination wedding. In which only family members were invited. Which meant because I wasn't genetically related to her, I wasn't invited. Oh, but my consolation prize was that I could still help plan her state-side reception! This one was a little tougher to move past because she's always told me I was more family to her than her own blood relatives. I sure didn't count as family then. Thing was, I wouldn't have been able to afford the trip anyway. I just wanted to be invited. 

Since then, there have been little issues here and there. Slowly, but surely, I've become less invested into the friendship. 

Last year, when I was interested in the Prince, she overstepped her boundaries and did exactly what I asked her not to do: she meddled. Like I wasn't going to hear about it? Before that meddlesome night, she liked the Prince just fine. After that, she HATED the Prince. And began her hate campaign against the Prince. Things have been done with the Prince, but she can't let it go for some reason. Every time I see her, she brings him up. And the way she brings him up is so obnoxious, rude, and antagonistic. And it makes me think excessively about the Prince to the point where I'm almost pining for the Prince. Which is just bad, because he and I are at a good place with our friendship and I want to keep it there. I just don't get why she has to keep bringing him up when it's so over. And I am over it. I've tried confronting her about it, about why she keeps bringing him up. I've dated other guys since him, so WTF? It's to the point where I don't want to even talk to her because I know she's just going to bring him up again. 

Wow, so I guess the last bullet point is the issue that's been on my mind. The last time she brought him up again was when we went out on Saturday. Where she acted the fool in other ways. When I think about it, it seriously just pisses me off. She doesn't have to like him, and my relationship with him in whatever form is really not her business in the way she's making it her business. I wonder if she has a thing for him. It wouldn't be the first time she did that. I just don't get it. And when I ask her point blank why we're even talking about him, she can't answer me. Either she doesn't know or she doesn't want to admit it. It's just happened too many times for it to be random.

Also, honestly, the Prince will always have a special place in my heart. He was there for me when my dad died, and he made me happy during a time when it was hard not to be sad. He was more there for me, than she was. If it comes down to it, she and I may have a long history, but that doesn't compare to the support he gave me then and continues to give me now. He's helped me dream about my future, made suggestions of how to expand my vision and the possibilities in store for me, more so than she ever has. And he genuinely wants me to be happy. After everything he and I have been through, the tumultuous drama-ladened ride that it was, I'm genuinely amazed that we've been able to retain our friendship and have managed to be even better friends afterward. 

And that is why I don't understand why I even have to justify my relationship with him to her. For now, I'm going to heed the advice of Adam and Jon, and take a break from her.